People had been asking during last sem break,
"Why don't you come over to visit? Air tickets are shit cheap... blah blah blah"
"Oh I can't leave Sydney cuz I have to take care of this or take care of that"
I don't really want to say that anymore. I don't want responsibilities that I have on my shoulder to hold me back from actually living my life. People always quote "Live life to the fullest". Its easy to quote, easy to say, easy advise. But pull your breaks and take a step back, and think. Have I really been living my life to the fullest? Or am I just living my life the way it should be. I am not pointing fingers at anyone. Nor am I trying to escape from my responsibilities. I just want me to be me.
Hence. I came up with this plan. I want to leave Sydney on my own for a year or two. I'm not talking bout going away, doing nothing but country hopping. My plan is for me to get an internship or a job in New York. Yes. My plan is for me to temporarily moving to New York City by myself. After graduation. I cannot pinpoint exactly what have driven me to make this decision but I'm glad I did, because now I have a goal, something non-shallow (AHHHAAAAHA) for me to look forward to.
I used to be sad when people like friends or family telling me that they are leaving, chasing after dreams. Whilst its painful to let someone go, I now understand why they have to do it. Growing up we began to understand ourselves a little bit more each day, what we actually want for ourselves. and how to get what we want, even though it spells separation of what we have grown up with. Its all part of achieving 'self-actualization'.
New York. I guess I want to feel the energy, living on the fast track, life on constant fast forward mode. and also, I want to know what its like to be a workaholic. Career driven, achieving for myself. Bottom-line, I want to learn to love myself more instead of wasting away.
See you soon New York. In couple years time.
