Post No.95

2010 is wrapping up today. Couple more hours to go, and there goes the year.

To sum everything up, 2010 is the year...

1) I moved out to a new place with my brother to start an independent life by ourselves. We learned how to run a household and do everything by ourselves.

2) I got a taste of my somewhat freedom. no one looking over my shoulders and I sorta can do much that I want. 

3) I got a job. Earned my own bucks. and loves the feeling of spending my own money. without any guilt.

4) I started my first year in uni, working on my bachelor degree. rawrrr.

5) I realised how costly is it to maintain a household. bills bills bills.

6) I got my Malaysian P's. abit slower than everyone else. but fuck. I still get to drive. yeh. Australian red P's in the process as we speak. 

7) I hit 20. two decades into my life. 

8) I got myself an Iphone4. with my own bucks. not even looking back to the Nokias, Sonys. Best thing ever.

9) I discovered macaroon goodness. ohhyummm. and other gourmet fine dining foods. Masterchef FTW. and not forgetting bubble teas. 

10) I cannot wait to be done with. because everything is in monotone. no sparks. no colours. no whatsoever.

Still. 

Happy New Years. 

2011. come quickly please.

Post No. 94

was supposed to post this on Christmas Day itself. but somehow I just never got around doing. Christmas is over. but I must still share this. Joseph Vincent's rendition of "have yourself a merry little christmas". almost put me to tears the first time I saw this video. it was kinda sweet touching. hope it does the same for you too.



On another note. its new years eve. so Happy New Year. and Merry Christmas?

Post No.93

Months and months of anticipation, it is time to go home :)))

Boarding tomorrow. Gahhhh. Long flight ahead. 

See y'all soon :)))

Post No. 92

All I want for Christmas...

good pair(s) of heels

a full set of quality make-up brushes

"magic" the cure lotion.

DSLR quality compact camera.

iPad. 

Macbook Pro.

So what is on your wishlist?

Post No. 91

Sometimes I wonder if it's wrong to plan and anticipate too obsessively. I like planning. Writing down list after list of grocery to shop, things to do, places to visit, people to see. Planning is like putting my life in front of my eyes, I can see the way it is heading or even determine how do I get to the position that I want it to go. Planning also brings anticipation. When you take the time to determine the next step of life, you expect it to happen that way. I'd like to think I am a person that likes, or even love surprises, but I guess in truth, I spent too much time anticipating to surprise, and the surprise turned out to be a let down. At this point, I resemble myself to Blair Waldorf. Like her, I like to take care of every single detail of everything. Everything has to be perfect. To have perfection, there has to be control. But when control gets out of hand, it turns into an obsession. I think that's what I have become, an obsessive monster.

Post No. 90

I'm guessing by now most of the people in Malaysia would have known about this Alviss Kong incident that cause quite a stir on Facebook and the news.

And yes. It's 4am and my brother's birthday and I am supposed to get some sleep early cuz hafta get a cake from the city tomorrow morning.

It shows how pissed off I am with this incident for me to stay up and write about it so that I can share my two cents worth of opinion.

Long story short. Alviss Kong, 22 years old decided to take his own life after breaking up with his second girlfriend of 4 months. Prior to his suicide mission, he wrote a long farewell note, devoting his last words to his second ex-girlfriend. He also told everyone his ex was not to blame for his action. His actions was merely to give himself some peace and closure, as he find nothing worthy for him in this world. More detailed news cover here and here.


what I think about this.

I do not fault his girlfriend in this incident. I do not know them personally so I am not in the position to judge what has been going on in their relationship. He took his own life. His girlfriend did not stand by him and encouraged him to jump. Obviously after getting out a relationship, there will be an emotional turmoil going on inside you. You let yourself go for a bit because you want to get those negativity out of your system as soon as possible, then pick yourself up and go on with life. Life is too short to keep dwelling on a petty four month relationship that has no way of turning back. He failed to do that and succumbed to his emotions.

He whole world was blinded. The only thing that he sees is his girlfriend, who she is everything that matters. So when his girlfriend break things off, to him, his world was taken away from him. I personally, do not feel any empathy for him, not one bit. To do what he has done is a very selfish act. The only people I feel sorry for are his parents and family. 22 years of hard work raising, educating and feeding this man, he ended up throwing his life away just because there is a hiccup in his love life. You leave this world, but you left your mess behind for the people who cares about you. You maybe resting in your coffin now, nothing to worry about. But have you ever thought about your parents, your sister, your family, your friends? How much tears and heartache for your stupidity? And the emotional scars you leave behind.

You decide to be a coward and run. But you have no idea of the damage you leave behind.

Post No. 89

I am so angry.


Biggest mistake I made was taking two weeks off work to concentrate on my exam. Two weeks later I called in to inform my managers that I am ready and available for work. Needed the money desperately since I have so many plans going on.

And I've waited. Weeks after weeks. this is the third week now. and I am leaving for home in 12 days wtf. My account balance is dipping low since I've been using my own money for food and outings for the past month. Paiseh asking parents for money. It is surprising how fast money can be spent. Super kanjiong now.

My two weeks off have resulted my shift to be given away to someone else. Not to mention I have called bout 5 times reminding then to roster me shifts. Finally scored one on Wednesday. But fuck I need more.

Please please please. I really hope I be rostered from Wednesday until the day I leave. If not. I'm screwed. No freaking shit.

Post No. 88

So I'll be back home in exactly two weeks time, and I am really excited of what to do with my hair.

yeah. so I only get to visit my hairdresser almost once every year, as I do not really like the hairdressers down here. bloody expensive I'd say.

I'm kinda bored with my hair now, sticking to the same mediocre long layered look. I need a change, something drastically different. No I am not gonna shave my head if that's what you are suggesting.

I never colored or dyed my hair before, still got virgin hair lolxx. I've always got intimidated by the idea that if you start coloring you hair, you can never stop. For a good dye job, a visit to the salon is a must, not to mention the cost that come along with it. DIY kits is an option, but it just never really look as good in terms of color. And I also hate roots showing between dye jobs. They are just plain ugly. Not to mention, some coloring jobs will turn brassy because hair just get to damaged.

Still, having said that, I'm still looking for coloring techniques that is fuss-free. the one I'm thinking of doing is Ombre hair, seen on likes of Camila Alves, Alexa Chung, and Rachel Bilson. *(I feel like I am contradicting myself cuz ombre hair does look like hair between dye jobs. But done properly I'm sure it'll look good)

Good no?

I'm wondering if ombre hair goes well with short bobs. 

Post No. 87

Holla December! the best month of the year, don't you agree?


So much to look forward to on this month,
I am going home in 18 days, Christmas is in 24 days, lots of holiday food, meeting up with friends, and all the sorts. OMGosh. can't wait till I step foot in KL.

Post No. 86

hello and hello.


So a month ago I did a haul from Cherry Culture after Miss Chaigyaru posted her youtube video of NYX cosmetic haul. And a month later the parcel arrived!

 the packaging good enough to prevent anything from breaking and kept everything tidy.

 I got this eyeshadow palette for my December trip back home. This palette got every color that I will possibly use and it also kinda resembles Urban Decay's Naked palette minus the price. It comes in a good size so it will save me alot luggage space for other stuff. I have not done swatches for this palette, but it does look quite pigmented. Majority of my palettes are of natural hues like brown and bronze, so I don't really use much of other colors, so this one fits me well.

 When I did a swatch for this color, well, I wasn't please. It looked pretty natural on the swatch of the website, and I assumed it will look natural on skin. the lip gloss is very pigmented and it carries a strong gold hint. when I tried it on it looked like I ran out of a circus or a dressed up party. Maybe I'll save this one for other occasions.

 I love this lipstick! I was skeptical when I received this, cuz it looks a lil too bright for my liking. but boy, was I surprised when I tried this one. It definitely gave me a change. One thing that worries me is how long lasting it will be when I go out with this. But I'll definitely purchase this again.

 In the midst of fixing my brow. so I got this Amuse Brow dual powder. I don't thing the tone suits me too well, because it carries a reddish hint. it doesn't show on the palette, but it will when you put in on. I'm pn the fence for this one cuz my eyebrows aren't properly done yet, so I might not what it will possibly look like. but for only $3, it won't do too much of damage to my purse. I can always double this as an eyeshadow or something.

 I got these because they are on sale and are the cheapest thing ever. these two cost me no more than $5. I'm not too sure of the price. I got the gold for this holiday season, gold works well during Christmas. It's not pigmented, so I will layer this on top of my usual black liner. The onyx liner also has simmers in it. Not the best liner that I owned, not sure if it is waterproof or long lasting. the consistency is kinda runny, so I have to layer it to get a darker shade.

Lastly, I got these concealers for my under eye circles. it smells like baby powder and also have this matte finish, unlike some other concealers that has a greasy finish. the coverage is pretty good. works wonders for my under eye circles, but I have problems using this for my acne scars. Probably cuz I'm not good at covering the scars.

Post No. 85

so its November.

finals are lurking around. somewhere in the corner. okay. so to be exact. it is in ten days. ten days. can you believe it? where did the time go? and I will finish all my subjects in six days. four subjects in six days. thats nuts I'd say. but the good thing is, once all this is over I can focus on my job and save up for Malaysia. In five weeks. I'll be boarding on a plane, heading to another five weeks of fun, food and laughter.



gotta love end of the year. so much to look forward too.

Post No. 84

I have quite the fetish with bags and shoes. Especially designer's ones. Being a student and only started on my part time job, it's really difficult for me to actually afford the real deal. unless I have some crazy savings habit. or rich ass parents who have no problems splashing thousands of dollars for me to just get a bag. or shoes.

nevertheless, it still does not stop me from actually admiring these beauties and stay alert with the latest trend.
so today. I'll be sharing the bags that I'll definitely get if I got the moolah for it.

#Balenciaga's Part Time bag

It is one of the hottest bag in among celebrities and I find this bag works well with almost everything. at first I was not so keen on this design, because it just does not have the classic feel that normally appeals to me. but after while seeing the countless possibilities of matching your outfits with this bag, I was sold. what I also love about it is that you will not look too overdone when carrying this bag.

#Chanel Coco 2.55

this is hailed one of the most classic bag of all times. First launched# in the 1950's by Coco Chanel, this bag is still one the classic icon of Chanel and is still going strong after 60 years. No person with the right mind will not get this bag if they are capable. The thing I love about this bag is also the chain straps. From what I've seen so far, you can get three different looks with this bag. Definitely one of the tops on my list.

#Mulberry Alexa Bag

I fell in love with this one here the moment I laid eyes on them. Recently, I have quite taken the fancy to Alexa Chung's style, just the right amount of femininity with loads of attitude. I also love the fact that her looks are chic, yet effortless and approachable. and they way she works with this bag, is just love.

#Rebecca Minkoff Morning After Bag

Rebecca Minkoff's bag are on the rise. This bag is absolutely stunning with studs and is one of the most versatile and spacious bags. It can be carry two ways, on shoulder or on arm. I love bags that can be carries on arms. It also packs attitude, especially this studded version. The price I also find quite reasonable, for under $800.

#Miu Miu Matelasse large tote

A sister brand of Prada, Miu Miu has been going strong for the past couple of years. To be honest, I have no idea on how to elaborate on this bag. I just know that I fucking love it.

#Hermes Birkin Bag

Like the Chanel bag, Hermes Birkin is also an iconic classic bag that will never ever goes out of trend. Birkin's are normally price above $10000. very expensive are slightly unattainable for the regular you and me. I prefer the lighter coloured versions for myself because the darker versions looks beyond my age. Delicate colours like whites and creams also requires extra caution and care, which I am happy to give for the price I pay for a bag like this.

Post No. 83

Couples week back, Coles and Woolies had this massive prawn sale. So the seafood lover in me just cannot bare to have this sale to slip out of my hands and I went to get 2kg of prawn. The prawn flesh had been used to make a number of yummy dishes, and I knew the shells and will come in handy someday.
After sitting in the freezer for almost two months, I finally found a use for the heads and shells.
Prawn Noodles Asian Style!

I confess. I never liked the taste or smell of Prawn Noodles while I was living at Malaysia. I avoid it at all cost. But lately my cravings for Malaysian hawkers food is getting too strong. So strong that I am getting ahead of myself making lists of places to visit and food that I must taste when I'm back for my December/January visit.

All in all. Prawn noodles stock was delicious! I did have some doubts when I was making the stock. It smelled terrible in my opinion. But after awhile, you get acquired to the smell and its smells wonderful.

The shells that I've used. The more you use for the stock, the better the taste. also let it simmer for a least 2 hours. I think I left mine to simmer for 3 hours.

The end product! It got some pretty basic toppings like bean sprouts, fish balls, hard boiled eggs, tou pok, and crunchy shallots. Gotta love the eggs. They taste so good with the soup. I don't have any prawns the freezer and I didn't get any from the stores. So this is a bowl of prawn noodles without any prawns. Lolxxx.

Awesome stuff!

p/s: I forgot to add that. after simmering the shells for 3 hours, I've added a packet of prawn noodle stock paste into the soup. so it saves you work from making your own chilli paste plus it makes the soup extra flavoursome.

Post No. 82

Beef is probably one of my favourite ingredient that I'd like to have in a meal. I believe when there is beef, there will always be a happy me. To be honest, I'm not particularly picky when it comes to the cut of meat, cept for the minor chewy parts of course. I still remember when dad took us all out for dinners and the first choice will definitely be a piece of nicely prepared steak with the usual accompanies. But ever since I moved to Sydney, I don't usually get the luxury of ordering a good medium rare steak due of the price of eating out. Hence I resort to home-cooked versions for satisfy my once-in-a-while steak craving.

Having said that, I used to think I am good with steaks and they should be the easiest thing to deal with. WRONG. I failed to produce delicious yummy juicy steaks on multiple occasions ever since I moved to my new place couple months ago. kinda embarrassing when you think about it. and not to mention Masterchef just makes it looks so easy.

and so today. after a long long time of not having any steaks, I was at the local butcher picking out four fresh looking minute steaks.

and made steak sandwiches! So I the obvious lettuce and tomatoes and steak, with beetroot slices and a fried egg. Beets and eggs are the best thing is sandwiches. ever. 

was kinda disappointed with the steak again. they did not turn out well. the surface did not brown or caramelize as I liked them too. and they were a bit chewy (I suspect they did not use the right cut). Tell me how to make yum yum succulent steaks please! All in all, its still beef and its still good. for now.

on another note. these are the most amazing desert/pastry I got off jenius.com.au. Instant Maple Apple Tarte Tatin. Easiest thing to make and all It needs was maple syrup, apples, puff pastries and butter. smells and taste heavenly I swear. 

and I found new love for bubble milk tea with pearls. maybe instead of being an coffee addict. I'll be a bubble milk tea addict instead.

Post No. 81

handed in my last major assignment for the semester this arvo. I feels good to know that there will be no more lengthy essays to write. no more late late nights trying race against time to make it to the deadline. having said that. I guess it is probably time to hits the books. hard. turning over a new leaf remember? Starting revisions a month ahead of the finals should be a pretty good start. 

found a job at dural 6 weeks ago. and started my first shift round that time too. my first job. had the usual intimidated feeling when starting a new job just like everyone else. but yeh. things were smooth sailing for a month. until last week. two of my most horrible shift to date. i keep stuffing up getting things wrong. it really did affect my self esteem and my confidence. my day was ruined. and I broke down. felt a lot better after crying. another shift tomorrow. praying I won't stuff up as much. no I hope I won't get anything wring at all. 

two more months till life lights up again.

Post No. 80

Do you remember that feeling?
The warmth that will make your heart flutter.

I yearn for that feeling again.


You know you are loved when if you run he runs after you.
You know you are loved when he'd climb a thousand walls for you.
You know you are loved when he'd drive to your place 2 in the morning just cuz you were hungry and you feel like maccas.
You know you are loved when thing's he did for you are just so sweet and you'd fill your diary will every single detail so you'll won't forget anything.
You know you are loved when he'd hold your hands just for you not to feel so lonely.

You know you somewhat found a piece of yourself when you found him.





I must be a box of vintage puzzle. Waiting to be found. Waiting to be pieced together to be complete again. Parts of me might be missing after being left for so long. But I know you'd figure a way to substitute the missing pieces. Tho not perfect, they might as well be.

To you. I wonder. Who you'd be.

Post No. 79

To the person who was supposed to make my heart go tah-dum tah-dummm tahhh-dumm. 

I'm waiting here. But where are you?

Post No. 77

was on a bread making/baking frenzy couple weeks back. the best parts of baking are kneading. and tasting. it might sounds weird. but I find kneading enjoyable. almost fun. its almost like having a good time working with playdough. brings back childhood memories doesn't it?

also got inspired by almost bourdain to make this shanghai scallion pancake. I don't really have any recollection of actually trying this dish, but I don't know what came over me to make this. It wasn't hard to make. but it isn't what I expected it to taste like. maybe its the way I do it. but it reminds me of frozen roti canai that you heat up at home. ohwell.

PORK. nuff said.

Post No. 76

love is fragile and we are not always its best caretakers
we just muddle through and do the best we can
and hope this fragile thing survives 
against all odds

Post No. 75

Okay. so I know I've been super slack these couple weeks. posting short short nothingness.
I am going to make a nothingness post again today.

My absolute love today. been having this one replay the whole day.

go on. watch it.

I love Joseph Vincent ♥

Dear God. Please send me my Joseph Vincent asap. 

Post No. 74

我们之间的距离有一百步，如果你愿意踏去第一步，我会帮你走完剩下的九十九步。

Post No. 73

Oh hey. it's SPRING!

time to dig out those frilly dresses and awesome sandals don't you think.


LOVE THE SUN

Post No. 72

Post No. 71

Wrapping up the month of August.


Uni started at the beginning of August. and during then. I looked forward to it. as I was just too bored with my life. and holy moly. four weeks into the semester and am I feeling the pressure. this two weeks are mainly assignments and class test period. so I guess people will be busy much. as I am one of them. typing frantically of any assignments that was thrown in my way. I don't know bout you. but ever since I started uni, I haven't really been hand-writing anything a lot. most of them are typed. now I find that it is quite difficult to read my writing because it gets so ugly. and not to mention how much my hand hurts writing under pressure. four pages worth of stuff in forty minutes.

in this month. I am also learning to open myself up to people. like being less guarded after a sip or two. but I can be under the influence all the time. or I'll have to see you in rehab. yeh. Idk. Trying to make myself to be initiative instead of sitting there and waiting around.

ALSO. I've join the Apple gang and got myself an iPhone4. It's some awesome shizzz. I'm no good with writing reviews on stuff. but yeh. judging from the hype of iPhones. you'll know how good this thing is.

been paying a bit more attention to politics and current affairs in Aussie and Malaysia too. the occurrence baffles me sometimes. racist issues, political differences, frauds and all that. the world is not such a pretty place after all.





yeh. that pretty much sums up my month. nothing fantastic. but I'm living.

Post No. 70

I am a gold fish that has been trapped in a little glass bowl all my life.

Bring me back to where I came from. Into the wild. Free me from this glass bowl.
So I can swim alongside other gold fishes like me. See the world together. Venture with spirit.



Swimming in circles and calling it a day.
What a waste.

Post No. 69

I P H O N E 4    is some awesome shit! Finally. I'm no longer a Nokia girl. WOOOTSA.