Post No. 89

I am so angry.


Biggest mistake I made was taking two weeks off work to concentrate on my exam. Two weeks later I called in to inform my managers that I am ready and available for work. Needed the money desperately since I have so many plans going on.

And I've waited. Weeks after weeks. this is the third week now. and I am leaving for home in 12 days wtf. My account balance is dipping low since I've been using my own money for food and outings for the past month. Paiseh asking parents for money. It is surprising how fast money can be spent. Super kanjiong now.

My two weeks off have resulted my shift to be given away to someone else. Not to mention I have called bout 5 times reminding then to roster me shifts. Finally scored one on Wednesday. But fuck I need more.

Please please please. I really hope I be rostered from Wednesday until the day I leave. If not. I'm screwed. No freaking shit.

Post No. 81

handed in my last major assignment for the semester this arvo. I feels good to know that there will be no more lengthy essays to write. no more late late nights trying race against time to make it to the deadline. having said that. I guess it is probably time to hits the books. hard. turning over a new leaf remember? Starting revisions a month ahead of the finals should be a pretty good start. 

found a job at dural 6 weeks ago. and started my first shift round that time too. my first job. had the usual intimidated feeling when starting a new job just like everyone else. but yeh. things were smooth sailing for a month. until last week. two of my most horrible shift to date. i keep stuffing up getting things wrong. it really did affect my self esteem and my confidence. my day was ruined. and I broke down. felt a lot better after crying. another shift tomorrow. praying I won't stuff up as much. no I hope I won't get anything wring at all. 

two more months till life lights up again.