Post No. 38

便利帖子。我想我应该也是一个吧。
想用的时候，真的很好用。不想看到她的时候，一撕就脱手，没有值得留念的价值。


我不想当便利贴子。我想在你的心目中有一个固定的位子，一个你时时刻刻都重视的角色。

但，有可能吗？


傻瓜。别做梦了。自己的空虚，自己添补。再大的渴望只会带来再大失望。与其等别人的付出不如自己加油。
我自己靠自己。

Post No. 37

First semester is officially over for me :)

after 2 weeks of slaving and lack of sleep, tonight will be nice to have a good good rest.

I have a feeling that I pretty much screwed up this semester. it would be a miracle if I can pull through statistic this sem. I actually quite enjoy doing stats. its maths, its fun. I guess I just didnt put myself into it. Still I hope I did enough to pass. Next sem, I need to pull my socks up, and be the high distinction student that I want to be. Mediocrity is just so. not going to cut it. I want to be more than that. 

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Can you believe that I'm turning 20 in 4 days. Unbelievable. I'm saying goodbye to my teen days. I've always reckoned being a teen is the best stage in life. Sure. most of you will have some friction with your parents during that period. but thats just part of it. part of what makes you learn. being a teenager. is being carefree. being stupid. being reckless. being emotion. mixing all these in a massive blender and you get one hell of a life. 

still. it bugs me. that I am going to 20 in 4 days. 

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I have no idea what kind of spontaneous act hit me yesterday. I just bought a ticket for me and my brother back to KL. just like that. guess I be home in 6 months. can't wait. missed it too much :)

Post No. 36

another Malaysian production. yes. I am suddenly gaga over all things Malaysian.

seems interesting. the male lead is kinda cute I reckon. the female lead is pretty too. 

but mostly I'm more into the background, the cultural reflection. 

Have any one seen it?

Post No. 35

I made friends with the tissue box for the past two days. we were almost inseparable.

being sick is the most horrible feeling. your whole body just doesnt feel right.
nose is block and running. head is pounding. throat is burning and sore. gulping down bottles after bottles of water until you can't take it anymore. wondering if you'll get better when you wake up from bed the next morning. in my case prolly the afternoons.



marketing and statistics left to go. oh god. simply just cant wait for the week to be over. then its party time!

Post No. 34

For whatever reason, I seemed to be very into FB video now. and yesterday I came across 快婿临门.

I don't know if anyone have heard of this, but its basically a short Malaysian sketch. 

The first thing that strikes me was. it was so    malaysian. 

and not to mention really really funny.

for that I search high and low for the complete episode of videos. and found it today :) 

content wise. it was. almost rubbish. all it was was cameras following 4 individuals randomly coupled to test the reaction of themselves and the people around them. they have to play *fake* husbands and wives.

but thats not the point. the point was the malaysian essence in it. at least for me anyways.

after staying in sydney for the past 3 years (minus the 2 months holiday back in KL), I kinda got used to the way sydney-ers roll. I blend myself into the city. 

but after seeing this video. and a out of the blue random chat to long lost bud on skype. it made me realise how much I miss KL. and how much I miss home. how much i miss the 3 years that I've left behind.

being here is about finding a new me. a better me. but somehow you cant help but wonder. what will it be like? what will I be like if I stayed.

initially, watching the video, listening to the way they speak reflects to the way I used to speak. I still talk like that occasionally, but no so much anymore. it was fun talking like that, the lahs, and the rojak of language. I learn to appreciate the flawed Malaysian English or the way silly way I used to speak mandarin. at times like this, I find it to be heart warming. 

they also shot a scene in SS2 pasar. the place that I will drop by to pick up stuff. go to the bank for me mumsie. I screamed "OMG SS2!!!" to no one. the place was just the opposite of where my parents works.

little things like these. like everything else we take granted off just seemed to golden at times like these. It gave me and my brother a serious case of homesick. at this moment, we will give anything to go back for summer holidays. I set out to write a review of this sketch, but it turned out to be a somewhat deep reflection of how I was. reminding myself how I am at a non superficial level. 

Today. I searched obsessively of every source that gives me a little bit of taste of Malaysia. blogs photograph videos streaming radio stations. Just for a glimpse of the place I miss so much right now.