Post No. 68

Been having this thought for the past few weeks. All my life till now, everything was set up to me. Where to go what to do how to live. I obliged to these arrangements but lately I feel the urge to take control, maneuver my life, doing things and making decisions without anything or anyone to hold me back. To live solely for myself for a while.

People had been asking during last sem break,
"Why don't you come over to visit? Air tickets are shit cheap... blah blah blah"
"Oh I can't leave Sydney cuz I have to take care of this or take care of that"  
I don't really want to say that anymore. I don't want responsibilities that I have on my shoulder to hold me back from actually living my life. People always quote "Live life to the fullest". Its easy to quote, easy to say, easy advise. But pull your breaks and take a step back, and think. Have I really been living my life to the fullest? Or am I just living my life the way it should be. I am not pointing fingers at anyone. Nor am I trying to escape from my responsibilities. I just want me to be me.

Hence. I came up with this plan. I want to leave Sydney on my own for a year or two. I'm not talking bout going away, doing nothing but country hopping. My plan is for me to get an internship or a job in New York. Yes. My plan is for me to temporarily moving to New York City by myself. After graduation. I cannot pinpoint exactly what have driven me to make this decision but I'm glad I did, because now I have a goal, something non-shallow (AHHHAAAAHA) for me to look forward to.

I used to be sad when people like friends or family telling me that they are leaving, chasing after dreams. Whilst its painful to let someone go, I now understand why they have to do it. Growing up we began to understand ourselves a little bit more each day, what we actually want for ourselves. and how to get what we want, even though it spells separation of what we have grown up with. Its all part of achieving 'self-actualization'.

New York. I guess I want to feel the energy, living on the fast track, life on constant fast forward mode. and also, I want to know what its like to be a workaholic. Career driven, achieving for myself. Bottom-line, I want  to learn to love myself more instead of wasting away.

See you soon New York. In couple years time.

Post No. 67

Impulse kicked in today. I have no choice but to surrender. and bought three pairs of shoes.
In defense, i don't own a lot of shoes. and my current ones are literally falling apart.

prancing around in shoes now. its just sad that aussies don't wear heels everyday.
Life is so much more interesting in towering footewear

Post No. 66

Inception.

Half the world right now might have already seen the movie. so there's basically is no point for me to talk bout the content. but I really have to give it to the writers/directors/whoever-who-created the movie. the concept is really one of a kind. something fresh, non-typical. out of this world. I liked it.

You know. I might start something new here. Instead of going on bout the movie, I am going to share things and people that caught my eye for each movie that I will see in the future.

For Inception.

Slick hair.

I don't know. but there's definitely something really sexy bout slick hair. for the characters in Inception anyway.AHHHAAAAAA. ARTHUR YESS??? I mean look at him with that hair. so MAN-ly??

No doubt. Arthur "The Point Man" is my favourite in Inception.

okay. enough Joseph Gordon-Levitt spamming.

we shall move on to Eames "The Forger". I think he is hot too. with the slick hair too duhh.

Inception brings a different insight to dreams. A whole different way to dream. Maybe now we will appreciate dreams more. I know I will. Dreaming brings a different dimension to the life I am living now. Doing things that I've could never do. Showing me what I crave in reality.

Overall,

I grade Inception 4.5/5

Post No. 65

First week back to uni was. slavery. I am still determined to make the best of this semester. with good grades. and a better life. Having these big goals set for myself. I guess. its for the best. For the first time in my life, I'm actually trying to do everything ahead of time. like reading textbooks. writing up my assignments. and what not. I just hope that this new determination of mine will last throughout the semester.

Internet getting capped is the biggest bitch. I can't do anything. but now I'm back ;;)))


Food. Been reading bout them a lot lately. If you haven't noticed, I've added a new column at the right side dedicated to all good food webbies. and today. Julie Goodwin from masterchef is starting her new series. I'm excited. Hmmmn. what's for dinner tonight?

Had laksa few weeks back. It was good. not to hard to do. and it curbs my craving at the moment. yums. and I've read raves about laska fried chicken from various sources. ought to try that out sometime. will let you know how it turned out.

It's a bit late to post this. Masterchef finale night really got my head spinning. I've wanted to join the rest of the country in preparing a feast to celebrate in front of the TV. but things didn't turned out the way I wanted them to. and I don't really have enough time and ingredients to make everything I've planned. So I've settled for a massive bowl of roasted vegetables and homemade chicken fingers. It didn't sound much, but I was stuffed for the night. Tasted pretty awesome too.

Been caught in this baking frenzy last couple days. making lots of fruit crumbles. It started with pear with blueberries. then followed by yesterdays two apples and mixed berries. and now. I have another two apples crumble in the oven going on. Life is better when you have a little sweets at the end of the day. I've never tried crumbles at any other places before, so I don't really know how they are supposed to be like. but I reckon mine tasted pretty good.


I hope to challenge some pork dishes soon. Bah Kut Teh anyone?


p/s: I've placed an order for iphone4. just wished that it will be here tomorrow.

Post No. 64

Can't believe this is the last weekend of my 7 week long holiday.
I know I've said that I'm all excited to go back to uni, and get my life on tracks again. I am still excited. Its a fresh start once again. A little part of me will kinda miss this holiday. No obligations, sleep and get up at any possible time. Doing nothing.


August is here.

This semester. I want to be better. A better person, a better student, a better child and sibling, and a better friend. I guess at least I owe it to myself to be that better person. what's life if u aren't at the best position that you can be, right?


A toast to a new, possibly wonderful start.

Cheers!