Post No. 94

was supposed to post this on Christmas Day itself. but somehow I just never got around doing. Christmas is over. but I must still share this. Joseph Vincent's rendition of "have yourself a merry little christmas". almost put me to tears the first time I saw this video. it was kinda sweet touching. hope it does the same for you too.



On another note. its new years eve. so Happy New Year. and Merry Christmas?

Post No.93

Months and months of anticipation, it is time to go home :)))

Boarding tomorrow. Gahhhh. Long flight ahead. 

See y'all soon :)))

Post No. 92

All I want for Christmas...

good pair(s) of heels

a full set of quality make-up brushes

"magic" the cure lotion.

DSLR quality compact camera.

iPad. 

Macbook Pro.

So what is on your wishlist?

Post No. 91

Sometimes I wonder if it's wrong to plan and anticipate too obsessively. I like planning. Writing down list after list of grocery to shop, things to do, places to visit, people to see. Planning is like putting my life in front of my eyes, I can see the way it is heading or even determine how do I get to the position that I want it to go. Planning also brings anticipation. When you take the time to determine the next step of life, you expect it to happen that way. I'd like to think I am a person that likes, or even love surprises, but I guess in truth, I spent too much time anticipating to surprise, and the surprise turned out to be a let down. At this point, I resemble myself to Blair Waldorf. Like her, I like to take care of every single detail of everything. Everything has to be perfect. To have perfection, there has to be control. But when control gets out of hand, it turns into an obsession. I think that's what I have become, an obsessive monster.

Post No. 90

I'm guessing by now most of the people in Malaysia would have known about this Alviss Kong incident that cause quite a stir on Facebook and the news.

And yes. It's 4am and my brother's birthday and I am supposed to get some sleep early cuz hafta get a cake from the city tomorrow morning.

It shows how pissed off I am with this incident for me to stay up and write about it so that I can share my two cents worth of opinion.

Long story short. Alviss Kong, 22 years old decided to take his own life after breaking up with his second girlfriend of 4 months. Prior to his suicide mission, he wrote a long farewell note, devoting his last words to his second ex-girlfriend. He also told everyone his ex was not to blame for his action. His actions was merely to give himself some peace and closure, as he find nothing worthy for him in this world. More detailed news cover here and here.


what I think about this.

I do not fault his girlfriend in this incident. I do not know them personally so I am not in the position to judge what has been going on in their relationship. He took his own life. His girlfriend did not stand by him and encouraged him to jump. Obviously after getting out a relationship, there will be an emotional turmoil going on inside you. You let yourself go for a bit because you want to get those negativity out of your system as soon as possible, then pick yourself up and go on with life. Life is too short to keep dwelling on a petty four month relationship that has no way of turning back. He failed to do that and succumbed to his emotions.

He whole world was blinded. The only thing that he sees is his girlfriend, who she is everything that matters. So when his girlfriend break things off, to him, his world was taken away from him. I personally, do not feel any empathy for him, not one bit. To do what he has done is a very selfish act. The only people I feel sorry for are his parents and family. 22 years of hard work raising, educating and feeding this man, he ended up throwing his life away just because there is a hiccup in his love life. You leave this world, but you left your mess behind for the people who cares about you. You maybe resting in your coffin now, nothing to worry about. But have you ever thought about your parents, your sister, your family, your friends? How much tears and heartache for your stupidity? And the emotional scars you leave behind.

You decide to be a coward and run. But you have no idea of the damage you leave behind.